I'm not honestly too into the whole blog thing, but feel that this may serve its purpose as it may just bring me one step closer to you, my listener. Periodically I will write, and will remain honest in my struggles, my accomplishments, and in my pursuit to meet with whatever destiny has in store for me.
Lately I've been working on a number of projects, and have been spending a lot of time "cleansing my soul" at the side of my one true companion (my keyboard), writing and composing new songs for you all to hear. It feels good to be able to focus on me again, and to see the changes which have occurred so very naturally in my strengths and writing capabilities. I feel the growth, and I feel strong again.
I've taken quite a few punches lately from my musical peers, and I've decided to refocus a lot of that negative energy and turn it into something positive. Who knows, maybe someday I'll be able to inspire someone down the long road. I find that there is always going to be someone out there that is looking to knock you down, discourage you, and try to make you feel less than you really are. I began to tell myself everyday that I believe in ME, and that I believe in my ART. I will not lie when I say that isn't always easy to say, nor does it feel convincing at times. However, those words in itself are sooo powerful, and eventually once everything comes full circle, or you get that extra pat on the back, and the reassurance from the crowds and regular fans that come to see you, or someone handing me a pen to sign them an autograph because THEY believe in ME........I FEEL it . I can only rely on myself, and I'm done waiting, done being told that my approach is wrong, or that I'm doing too much of this, too little of that. Your success is dependent upon you. I will not stand and judge any others. I have worked very hard for my accomplishments, both small and big. Some may believe I haven't accomplished anything. Everyone is different, everyone feels fulfilled in different ways, and it really makes me sad to see that others feel the need to put their peers down in order to think more highly of themselves. I am HAPPY, and am doing what I do because I LOVE it, and because opportunity allows me to.
I know I have A LOT to learn, A LOT to experience, and many more mistakes to fall hard on and pick myself back up from, and I acknowledge that this will be a very bumpy ride.
I will continue to work hard, remain positive, remain true to myself. This will all pay off someday. I welcome this challenge with open arms.