These past few weeks have been a joy ride. I had the opportunity to spend some time and be reconnected with two of my best friends from adolescence, be with my family and back in touch with my home base, and relive the excitement of walking in the shadows of New York's towering city sky scrapers. The new individuals who've recently stumble into my life, and those friends whom have resurfaced have been incredible. From dedicated fans traveling an hour to see me perform at an ice cream shop in Albany, to rocking out to Girl Metallica with a friend who is a piece of my childhood, to the mind boggling music connections that have me VERY excited for the future.......Life is really good. I'm living one day at a time as I'm realizing that true control is not in our possession. Life is going to happen as it happens. I'm just going along with the flow and taking it all in for what it's worth.
No doubt are many aspects of this field frustrating at times, but I honestly don't see how people could belittle the journey. Generally speaking, there always will be hurdles to jump. It's all about learning to land on two feet without a stumble. Landing gracefully takes time and practice, and with that time and practice comes perfection. I find the challenge exciting. Each performance is like a box of chocolates. I find beauty in wonder; because if you don't know, you can't expect. I believe it's possible to be optimistically realistic. Setting the bar too high leads to disappointment and unnecessary frustration. You have to be honest with yourself, with where you are placed in your current state, and figure out how to keep pushing forward towards becoming a better version of the former you.
I've gained much from my recent series of adventures. The opportunities that life has presented me thus far have been mind-blowing. They have taught me to find pleasure and beauty in those things easily taken for granted. They've taught me to take in the moment for its experience and knowledge earned. They taught me to find balance in all areas of my life, and to evenly distribute and recognize the difference between needing, wanting, and loving.
I WANT to live a life unbiased, free of judgement and full of reason. I WANT to be surrounded by those who make what i just stated attainable. I NEED to be dedicated to all it's cause, I NEED to set my goals and work hard at attaining them. I want to LOVE, be loved in return by those who help shape me into a better me, and who continue to fuel my passion, desire and LOVE for music and to live out my dreams. There is much to learn and take from one another, and even from ourselves. We are a product of our environment, our choices, and our relationships. I feel there's always something to gain from each experience. It's what one chooses to do with their newfound knowledge, and how they apply it to their current situation that shapes who they're becomming.